To the point where I don't know if I'd upset the status quo if I put posion down the watermain.

[aproclivity]

I am...practically homicidal at the moment. This is fucking absurd. So, in April, I went to the Doctor complaining of the same old story that you guys have already heard. I've been dealing with loss of muscle control, loss of cognitive functions, losing words, my hands clamping up, having severe muscle tremors and being overly tired constantly despite how much I do or do not sleep. It was so bad I actually visited a doctor, which is something I hate most in the world. She thought I had sleep appenia and set me up for a sleep study. The first sleep study date was in July. The 14th of July to be exact. I know they told me that I didn't stop breathing and everything was all normal, but if this was the reason everything was supposed to be happening, the next step would be something like calling me.

It wasn't. She got the report and signed off on it THE DAY AFTER THE TEST. She got it the fucking next day and signed it and NEVER CALLED ME WITH ANYTHING, NEVER CHECKED IN TO MAKE SURE THAT I WAS ABLE TO USE MY HANDS PROPERLY OR WALK WITHOUT HAVING MY MUSCLES GIVE OUT OR TWITCH OR FIND SIMPLE WORDS. But no one did, and it wasn't until I FUCKING CALLED THEM that they set me up an appointment. The appointment isn't even until next week which means none of this shit is going to be dealt with until after I go back to school. I'm so fucking livid you don't even know.

Comments

[ihadtimetokill.livejournal.com]

Listen close to everybody's heart, hear that breaking sound. Hopes and dreams are shattering apart and crashing to the ground. I cannot believe my eyes, the world's filled with filth and lies. But it's plain to see, evil inside of me...is on the rise...Look around. We're living with the lost and found. Just when you feel you've almost drowned, you find yourself on solid ground...

Um, fail. Also, I miss you. When are you going back to school? Isn't move-in at the end of the month?

[a-proclivity.livejournal.com]

And you believe there’s good in everybody’s heart. Keep it safe and sound. With hope you can do your part. To turn a life around. I cannot believe my eyes. Is the world finally growing wise?

I miss you too! Move in day is the First of September. We should hang when you get back from CA.

[eleanorruby.livejournal.com]

this reminds me of the shit i dealt with a few years back with my old doctor... the asshole very literally nearly killed me.

(huge hugs)

i hope at least that they can get this sorted out.

[a-proclivity.livejournal.com]

I really do have such hate for the medical professon. Maybe I should be a malpractice lawyer.

[texan-elf.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about your illness. Hope you read the doctor's office the riot act for not being on the ball. My dad's doctor's office management skills (or lack thereof) aggravate me to no end too.

This won't ease your troubles, but maybe it'll be a tiny peace of mind. :) The DW_absolutely fantastic icon (Nine) is by meganlynn09.

Best wishes for a healthier you very soon.

[a-proclivity.livejournal.com]

I'm assuming you mean this one. And thanks for letting me know!

[texan-elf.livejournal.com]

Yes, that is the one I was referring to.

Here's the entry meganlynn09 debuted that icon in:
http://meganlynn09.livejournal.com/41477.html