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So yeah. Tonight I was going through some stuff, trying to like figure things out, and got linked to this: http://www.mtholyoke.edu/acad/deans/12211.shtml which is the stuff on the whole like medical leave business. And yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'm so fucked with FA, and everything else. I can't just take shit for two months, I like have to petition for shit and I don't know if this is going to count as a chronic illness and I'm going to lose all of my aid and be technically not enrolled in school which means that I'm going to need to start paying back my loans and may lose my insurance and god damn fuck all of everything. Why why why why why why why why why why didn't they just fucking send me to the ER? Why? All my life, all I wanted to do was come here, that's all I've ever wanted and now I'm leaving so much worse then where I came.

You win Mount Holyoke. You win.