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I am just fucking drowning in everything. I hate it, I just...I hate everyhing in the whole fucking world. I feel like I will never accomplish anything and that my brain is melting into a cess pool of nothing. I feel unloved and just miserable. I'm so sick of this shit.

Nothing ever works for me as it should. It just doesn't. I'm tired of this. In April I like went to the doctor for all of this shit. So, my mom and sister go to the same doctor that I do, and they saw her today, and they mentioned shit and like she said that I never told her about it, and then said maybe I was having seizures... And I was supposed to see her tomorrow, so my fam gets home....AND THEN THE Doctor's offices CALLs AND CANCEL MY APPOINTMENT FOR TOMORROW. Yeah. I don't get it. I just feel like shit all of the time and I feel like I can't write or anything. I just. Sigh