So many hopes were lost here...

Man, I fucking wish that everytime I felt upset now, all the past stuff didn't end up feeding into it. I wish that the fucking nightmares would shut the god damn hell up. Seriously, it's like all the badness feeds off each other. I have so much to do and don't wanna be distracted by things that I can't change, and even if I could probably wouldn't. I just wish my brain would start to tell the difference.

I hope my Dad doesn't go on strike. I wish this not getting in panic would go away. I wish I could drop out of my illusion class. I wish I could hit the lottery and not worry about money ever again. *sigh* I just wish things would get easier and not harder.