"When no one will hear you, you scream"

Bleh. You would think after sleeping for something like 13 hours, I would end up feeling slightly more awake, or at least slightly better then I had prior. But this is me, and we and we all know how well that works, right? I fucking hate Spring, I loathe it entirely. Once we start getting past Imbloc, and the days start becoming noticeably longer, I start feeling mentally worse. All of this is clearly shown within my grades from the last however many years I've been in school, but this is so the worst one so far.

I just can't seem to be able to get into this whole school thing right now. I think part of it has to do with the whole "My mom was bouncing in and out of ICU" thing, as well as the whole, "Having the plague twice and possibly getting it again" thing. It's like I know this semester is probably the most important of my being in school, but I just can't seem to get into it. The statistics class is evil and my death and dying class is so boring I go in there and sleep or do my homework for the nemesis that Stats has become. It's like I know that I'm not gonna get in, so there's really no point.

Which is probably the reason that I have had my personal statement finished for a week but haven't gone and sent it to them yet. God, I totally should be cleaning because fucking housings coming in again, but I just can't make myself give a shit enough to do it.

Long story short: I really fucking hate my life.