I am so sorry. You really don't deserve all this nonsense.

We all have phases like this, and everything will work out if you let it. I can't stress that enough...once you get to a point where you can allow yourself to stop worrying, and trust in yourself and your abilities to just pull shit out when you have to, it's...well, it's an amazing thing. It might not be much help, but I can tell you right now, you would not be here if you were not a smart kid. Being here kind of makes me feel like an idiot, too, but...we're in it for the long haul.